As I sit here sipping my morning coffee so many thoughts are running through my mind. I've had an emotional weekend, the source of which I can't quite put my finger on. Sometimes darkness creeps up on you and sometimes it hits you like a freight train. This  weekend mine was the latter. Oh, there are small things, I've felt hurt by someone I love and frustrated with cleaning  up another mess but life is just tough sometimes and there are  days I want to skip out on the hard parts. It's so easy to fall into the seduction of distraction on days like that. I mean, who wouldn't want to go shopping instead of dealing with your emotions or write a blog post instead of clean?

I've cried my way through the last 2 days and today it is time to pull on my big girl boots and get back to life. It's time to clean up this apartment, get things in order and keep  moving  forward.

 If  there is one thing I've learned  through life it's that forgiveness and love are choices.  You can choose  to  harbor  hurt  feelings  or  hate  someone  but  it  won't  get  you  anywhere. I may stumble here and there, giving  into  the  hurt  and  frustration  and  spend  almost 2 days crying but I won't stay in that place.

 Yesterday afternoon I was able to spend some much needed time with some very dear  friends, Jessica,  Cheri  and  my  sister-in-law. After having a few moments that I entitled "April fest" which basically included me crying and venting about my struggles and them  comforting,  understanding, advising and sometimes even laughing me through it. Once  again, I am so blessed.

 Today is a new day. Praise God! And I know it's going to be a good one because I can hear my Adalee lying in her bed right now singing "Jesus loves me".  Yes, He does, hunny. And He loves me too!